So GoDaddy moved me to a new server. A move that should have been seamless for me, but somehow has resulted in super slllllloooooooooooooooow loading times for all my pages. To the point they time out. Hence, no blogging.
But! They must have rebalanced or something, because, hey hey, here I am again able to load pages. Real blogging will commence…. now. Or in a day or two. If the server is stable. Ha!
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So the personal blogging has been a little… sparse… lately. I’m trying to balance how much I want to write, and how much I have time to write, and how public I want my writing to be.
To be honest, I’m struggling. Time is my biggest issue, and balance in just about every area of my life. I have more work to do than I can get done in the time allotted, and leaving things undone stresses me out. I’m trying to prioritize things, and streamline the non-negotiable tasks, but it’s hard. Work is stressful. Trying to keep the house in order and running smoothly is stressful. Parenting is fun, but stressful. Second-guessing every decision a billion times, very stressful.
I have had a few successes – I mean, the laundry is fairly caught up (less than two loads dirty in the house) – Chad’s helped a lot, and there’s often clothes in a basket or on the table to be folded, but no one has had to scrounge for underwear or socks anytime recently. So that’s a win.
I spent a weekend with Chad in Denver – and no kids. Also a win, as it’s the first time we’ve been able to do that! My house was clean enough that I didn’t mind my mother-in-law and father-in-law staying there with the kids, and I worked hard on not stressing over it being perfect (It wasn’t. They didn’t mind). In fact, they arrived about 5 hours earlier than I expected them – and I was ok with it, even though I hadn’t finished all the chores I was going to before they arrived. I didn’t stress about the kids while we were gone, and we had a great time with friends, living it up, staying up late, and sleeping most of the day.Exactly what i needed for a getaway.
But the day to day management of home, work, and kids – now there’s my struggle. And probably something I’ll hash out more than once here, as I try and figure it out. And as I have time to write.
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So I stopped writing here. I could say that it was because I have no time, or because there’s not much to say, and either would be true enough I suppose. But the truth is, I started feeling kind of weighed down by the baggage my blog was carrying – I have been blogging (off and on – more off than on recently) for almost 10 years, and the entire backlog of that was in these archives.
I’ve changed a lot as a person in the last 10 years, for better or worse. And I started thinking maybe I do’t need to drag around 10 years of my past history all the time. Plus, I tend to write more when things are bad or I’m upset (free therapy!), and so a great deal of my archives is full of negativity. Drama. Nightmares. Angst.
So. I set all my old posts, before today, to Private. I couldn’t bring myself to delete them (yes, I have trouble getting rid of things – that’s a post for another day). But I feel like I’m starting over, with a clean blog slate.
I am not promising to write every day, or every week, or anything I can’t live up to. I’m just hoping this is a step in the right direction, a step towards getting back into writing. I may be playing with layout in the next few months, as well as trying to find my voice again. Bear with me?
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