So the personal blogging has been a little… sparse… lately. I’m trying to balance how much I want to write, and how much I have time to write, and how public I want my writing to be.
To be honest, I’m struggling. Time is my biggest issue, and balance in just about every area of my life. I have more work to do than I can get done in the time allotted, and leaving things undone stresses me out. I’m trying to prioritize things, and streamline the non-negotiable tasks, but it’s hard. Work is stressful. Trying to keep the house in order and running smoothly is stressful. Parenting is fun, but stressful. Second-guessing every decision a billion times, very stressful.
I have had a few successes – I mean, the laundry is fairly caught up (less than two loads dirty in the house) – Chad’s helped a lot, and there’s often clothes in a basket or on the table to be folded, but no one has had to scrounge for underwear or socks anytime recently. So that’s a win.
I spent a weekend with Chad in Denver – and no kids. Also a win, as it’s the first time we’ve been able to do that! My house was clean enough that I didn’t mind my mother-in-law and father-in-law staying there with the kids, and I worked hard on not stressing over it being perfect (It wasn’t. They didn’t mind). In fact, they arrived about 5 hours earlier than I expected them – and I was ok with it, even though I hadn’t finished all the chores I was going to before they arrived. I didn’t stress about the kids while we were gone, and we had a great time with friends, living it up, staying up late, and sleeping most of the day.Exactly what i needed for a getaway.
But the day to day management of home, work, and kids – now there’s my struggle. And probably something I’ll hash out more than once here, as I try and figure it out. And as I have time to write.