You guys. My life is crazy right now. I mean, it’s crazy all the time, but it seems extra crazy right now – like the merry-go-round is spinning way too fast – and I can’t quite put my finger on why.
Brianna was sick this week. A stomach bug, that cancelled her ear tube removal for the third time (first time was hand, foot, and mouth. Second was scarlet fever). But! She may not need it done after all, now that’s we;ve put it off so long, so we’ll know more about that later next week-ish.
I think I’m getting sick. Or maybe it’s from sleeping on the couch for two nights so I could hold a bucket out for Brianna to puke in. Or maybe it’s just stress because, work, life, parenting, hello.
My house is in disarray, which stresses me out. But all the puke laundry was done yesterday, and an extra load to boot, so I’m not that terribly far behind. I just *feel* behind. If I keep reminding myself I’m not, maybe it will stick.
Meanwhile, here’s some interesting diversions:
No really, my mother’s day was great. I took a 6 hour nap(!) on Saturday, and an extra 2 hour nap on Sunday. That’s like, as much sleep as I get in two days, people. Which is why I needed those naps, ha ha.
We went out for dinner Saturday, and Chad ordered take-out on Sunday, so I was super spoiled. And the kids made me a paving stone with their hand prints, and Brianna’s design sense, and it looks awesome. And Brianna signed her name, with all the letters in order, in my card, right above Benjamin’s crayon scribbles.
I love my kids. Even when I’m stressed out.
I spend a lot of time worrying I’m not the right kind of mom. I mean, there’s a ton of stuff I don’t do. All the time. I haven’t had Brianna start Bible memory verses, even though she can quote Mother Goose like no tomorrow. I had completely neglected to work with Benjamin on colors, which Chad helped fix this weekend. I feel like I should be teaching more, working more with them on skills and emotions and chores and… and… and…
And I’m so often overwhelmed by it. So often. And especially this week, as my feelings of not being good enough tend to increase as my other stress does. So this post came at just the right time for me.
My constant struggle is to be in the moment. I just need to keep on – being in the moment.
So I was chatting with a friend this week, and mentioned reading the Bible on my phone. No joke, the YouVersion app is what keeps me on a reading plan. And I think that’s kind of awesome.
But my phone is fast becoming an integral part of my life. I use it to schedule, connect, track, and maintain almost every aspect of what I do. And that is kind of scary, and kind of awesome, all at the same time. Just a thought.
I buckled down on the diet today. Seriously. I went to the doctor last week, and while she had mixed news on what could be done on improving my health concerns in general (nothing serious), the most depressing part of the visit was stepping on the scale. Looking into the possible things I’m having problems with – none of them are due to weight, but weight plays a factor in making them worse or more difficult to treat.
So. Eating healthy(er), again. Which means I have to curb the emotional eating, because yikes I have a lot of emotions, and they all seem to crave carbs. Wish me luck! Also hope to step up the exercise again, when my xBox hard drive returns from the nether (where it’s being replaced). And, we might get a Rec Center membership, if Chad and I can ever find the time to go.
This is old, but it still makes me lol: 100 Essential Skills For Geeks. I have an embarrassingly awesome number of these skills, which totally makes me a geek chick, which we already knew.
I totally read The Hunger Games in one sitting. Due to my awesome cousin, I’ll be reading the second book this week, and probably the third shortly after. I haven’t decided if I’ll review them all at once, or one at a time, but a review is definitely forthcoming. I love reading, and I love that my Kindle (and my phone, lets be honest) help me work it into my everyday life – when I really don’t have time to read at all.
As a funny note, my requirements for a purse no longer include fitting a TI-89 (like in college), but now include fitting my Kindle (which is thinner, but wider). My current purse (a 5 year gift from my company, and the only name brand purse I’ve ever owned) works wonderfully for this. If I ever get a MacBook Air, though, I will totally need to upgrade my purse.
That, if nothing else, should cinch my geek girl cred. My purse size and shape is almost entirely dictated by the technology I feel I need to carry.
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