Five Minute Friday: Brave

  • Posted on March 16, 2012 at 10:03 am

On Fridays, Gypsy Mama holds a blog carnival where we all stop and write for five minutes – no editing, no over-thinking, just write.  Care to join us?

This week’s topic is: Brave

I don’t think I am brave.  I dodge conflict like a pro, waiting until things are almost unfixable (or worse) before dealing with them.  I often still sleep with the baby monitors on. I avoid any kind of situation that could lead to confrontation.

But I also avoid deep friendships. Too often, starting a new friendship requires me to put myself out there and be brave, and all too often I shy away from that – because it might hurt. Or because i might fail. Because I’m not brave enough. What if they don’t like me? What if I’m all awkward and dumb? What if… I don’t even know. Too much worry.  Not enough bravery.

Six years in this town, and I still feel like I haven’t put down roots.  Because I’m not putting myself out there. I need to be brave – I need to actively seek out good friends and good situations.  And I need to be brave, and try new things.  But it’s hard. I need to stop whining! And do it!

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4 Comments on Five Minute Friday: Brave

  1. mwc liz says:

    Visiting from Gypsy Mama’s blog.

    Your post is very honest and that takes bravery. Take small steps and you will get where you want to be. Good luck. =)

  2. Felecia says:

    Oh that statement kicked me right in the gut. Six years and still no roots. I let that happen to me once too – you know what helped? Finding a church to attend (in this instance – a Vineyard). I still struggled against those who wanted to be friends and include me in their lives because if I was honest, I felt too broken to be loved.
    I implore you to rail against that feeling! Its just the enemy isolating you.
    Once I opened myself up to them God used me in such beautiful ways to minster to each and every one! I was forever blessed.
    Blessings on your journey. Praying for you!
    Felecia

  3. Deedee says:

    Thanks, Felecia. I do have a church home here, I guess i just have a hard time connecting with people. I have a good bible study group, and love meeting with them on Wednesdays, but still don’t have anyone to call if I need to get out of the house one night and talk or need someone to watch my kids in an emergency.

    I always feel like I’m asking someone to do me a favor, even if I’m inviting people out for dinner or something. I probably need to get over that, and it will be much easier. :-)

  4. Felecia says:

    Okay DeeDee … I’m still praying though that someone comes alongside that makes it easy for you to say “help!” We all need a girlfriend who understands and who you can trust in our lives.
    Many blessings!
    Felecia

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