today… was an ok day.
I have a voice scheduled for Thursday. Yay! Then I can start running subjects (right after spring break). And I’m mostly done studying for my midterm. Which is good, since it’s tomorrow. Now I’m just tired. So I’ll probably go to bed when Chad gets home (in like, 30 minutes).
After tomorrow’s midterm, I’ve just got one more assignment due before the break. Yay! and some papers to grade, but that should be fairly short work.
I am so tired of putting everything I have into something, only to have it come crashing down around me. And part of me is like, But look, I invested all this time, and I worked so hard, yada yada… and the rest of me is like, Shut up and deal with it, no one likes a martyr anyway. Obviously, you didn’t put *everything* into it, or it would have worked out.
Warring factions in my brain. Gives me a stupid headache… which then makes it difficult to work on my current soul-consuming project (my midterms and first year project).
I probably think too much. Check that… I definately think too much. And generally not about whatever I should be paying attention to.
All of my female friendships seem to have a 6 month expiration date. Which probably says more about me than I’d really care to deal with.
I got called a tramp at kroger today. By someone I don’t even know. No idea what the deal was.
I have a midterm on Wednesday, and I need to do well. I’ve started studying, but it’s one of those tasks that seems like I’ll never finish. No idea how the rest of the class is doing… I wasn’t invited to any study sessions, so I’m assuming there aren’t any.
I’m still working on getting the stupid voices for my first year project… no idea when that’ll come through. I’m just short one male voice at the moment.
Spring break is coming up. And I need it really bad this year… I don’t know… I’m like a fish out of water or something. I just don’t seem to fit in my skin anymore, and its showing in my attitudes towards school, too.
Anyway. Enough randomness. Must get back to the studying.
I have accomplished a bunch of stuff today.
But somehow, I still have an amazing amount of stuff to do. And I feel kinda apathetic about it. Like I would rather go home and go to bed. Maybe if I sleep for like, 2 weeks, the world will sort itself out while I’m asleep and I won’t have to deal with any of it.
But I can’t. I have a dinner in like, 30 minutes. At least the school is paying for ir…
PostSecret (nsfw!) is a constant (and sometimes very much needed) reminder that I’m not the only one, and that there are a great number of people in the world who are more screwed up than I am, and have bigger problems than I do.
Blah. Been having kinda a blah week, really. I think I’m coming down with something (when am I not?), I’ve been waaaay stressed out at school (having your ass handed to you on a platter by the departmental progress committee will do that), the realization that New Orleans is never going to fully recover has finally hit me, and it’s just been kinda blah.
But this past weekend was awesome. I enjoyed New Orleans Mardis Gras to it’s fullest (and by that, I mean the drunken part but not the orgy part. Contrary to popular opinion, I do have a few limits). I caught beads (lots of beads), ate decent New Orleans food (port of call was really busy, so no hamburgers for us), watched parades, walked down Bourbon Street, and drank a drink that was literally more than half as tall as I am. In case you wanted to know, I cannot in fact hold my liquor like He-Man, everything is funnier when you’re drunk, my drunken vocabulary mostly consists of the words “totally” and “awesome”, and fire is the most totally awesome thing ever to be in a parade. Oh yeah, and I’m never (ever) allowed to drink that much Hurricane again.
But yeah. Back to the humdrum (but not boring, no never boring) life of a grad student. I’ve finished tonight’s homework, and now I’m trying to decide whether to read Eugene Field while taking a bath, or to play Elebits (the greatest Wii game evar).
Oh yeah… all my pictures are broken. I’m working on that, it’s annoying, I hsould have it fixed sometime this week (moaybe tomorrow).
So I was going to post somehting mushy yesterday, in honor of it being valentine’s day, but I forgot :/ Then when I rembered today, I realized that 1) it’s not valentine’s day any more, and 2) the song lyrics I was going to post that remond me of Chad… I already posted them. A while back. When the song came out, I think. So yeah, I’m not going to repost them here, but I think “Bless the Broken Road” by Rascall Flatts would have been appropriate yesterday.
Other than random forgetting of stuff (which is totally normal, for me, I suppose), I’m kind of just hanging in here. I think I might have pissed off my advisor, and I’m really really tired for nogood reason, and I fixing to have to sue my car insurance company because my health insurance company is going to stop paying for my back problems, since they were caused by my accident, and my car insurance company thinks they shouldn’t have to pay all of it (or something). it all lovely.
But. It is all ok. Because, rain or shine (weather.com says shine!), I’ll be in New Orleans for Mardis Gras weekend (which is to say, Saturday), and I get to see all (some) of my Mississippi people, and be totally crazy (within some amount of reason, I suppose). Yay for Mardis Gras! Yay for New Orleans! Yay for Port of Call hamburgers, and other good NOLA food! Yay for parades, and beads, and old friends! Yay for Harry Conick, Jr. (just because)!
Today’s life lesson:
Never wear a black shirt under a brand new grey sweatshirt.
